Sunday, December 20, 2009

Christmas Break.. no school. Thank God.

Hey everyone who doesn't read my blog.. ever. It has been forever and a day since I last updated. I apologize. I'm watching Band of Brothers and just finished pre-screening some books for Invisible Children at Mizzou. We're doing really well with points. I figured since I wasn't doing much anyway, thought i'd update. Finals time has been so busy. I don't think I had ever been that busy around finals time. Guess that comes with actually going to legit college. I heard though that Stephens is really rough anyway, which makes me feel GREAT.. because I tend to die a little inside when put under pressure.

Overall, I think this semester went alright. There were some things about my non-fashion classes that I didn't like, but you'll have that. I pretty much know my grades, except for my Econ and Media&Culture grades. My teacher isn't posting or letting any of us know, and of course those classes are the ones i'm most worried about. I need to stop thinking about it, because i'm kinda making myself sick with worry over it. My fashion class was awesome though. Everyday in class was pretty much a constant conversation about the fashion industry, and shopping. It was awesome. My teacher was fabulous too. Her name is Courtney and she knows a lot about fashion. She's also really nice so that was a plus.

Next semester I have a couple more fashion classes. I can't remember exactly what they are but i'm excited. I also have an internship class, so hopefully that'll make me feel better about applying for internships next summer. Even though i'm looking forward to some classes, i'm not so excited about the fact that Monday-Thursday, I have a night class starting at 6. It's gonna suck, but it could be worse. I could have a night class on Friday. Plus, since I have so many late classes, I can sleep in. Doesn't give me much opportunity to work though. That sucks because I don't have money. I'm hoping i'll get money for Christmas or something.

I feel like my modeling class went really well, and I learned a lot from it. I can now successfully walk in heels without feeling bad about myself, and I have gained a better since of posture. I really enjoyed it though. I wasn't a fan of knowing I was being judged, but if I do actually get into modeling in the future it'll be constant judging. I feel like i'm starting to accept the fact that i'm me and there's nothing I or anyone can do to change that, so i'm going to need to start taking things with a grain of salt. Some of the girls are bitches though. You can tell. I'm NOT a fan of that.

I'm just so glad it's Christmas Break. It's nice to not have homework to do. I probably won't update again, since I don't really have any school work or fashion stuff to write about. Who knows though. If i'm bored, I just might. It'd be nice to know if anyone reads this. I'll probably still update for the future, but for now it'd just be nice. That's all. Hope everyone has a good Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

long time no talk.

Well hello there, everyone. Sorry it's been forever. I've been so freakin' busy with homework and papers and my social life. Sooo many things going on and sooo much to do! So little time.

I'm in the library right now and just got done with some things I needed to get done on my own and in the quiet, so just thought i'd update ya'll on what's going on lately. Besides school consuming my life, things are good. The only thing i'm having a bit of trouble with is trying to decide what it is I actually wanna do with my life. I have to do a project in my Survey of Fashion class about a career i'd like to learn more about, so I chose Fashion Photography, because I am somewhat interested in that and I think I might like to do that for my career. So, I chose it to learn more about it. We'll see how that goes.

I'm also kinda freaking out about my internship next summer. This summer is going to be dedicated to working and getting money and looking around for internships, that's for sure. I thought about doing an intership this summer, but I am NOT ready. Not at all. I'd like to get more classes under my belt before that. I know that means that I won't have my internship til after I graduate, but I think all in all that's better for me in the long run. That's just my opinion. I know what's good for myself, (most of the time), and I really think this is it. There is a photographer back home that I know, I might even ask her if I can job shadow her, even if it's unpaid, just so I can get a general photography background. Maybe that'll help me learn more skills.

Modeling class is going pretty well. I'm learning how to stand and walk while standing.. if that makes any sense.. it's hard! I think i've got most of it down, but i'm having trouble moving my arms and just relaxing, because I feel like i'm super stiff. It'll get better. We're starting to learn different turns now, so that'll be interesting.. I would really like to do modeling though in the future. Even if it just means part-time. It probably wouldn't be that great after I get pregnant haha.. unless it's for a magazine or something. Who knows. I just really enjoy myself when i'm in class and I think that I could contribute myself to the modeling business.

I still don't feel very fashionable for a fashion major, and to tell you the truth it doesn't give me much confidence. I don't even know a lot about designers compared to some of these girls, so it sucks. I have been making progress though, so I know i'm learning things which is good. I just need to suck it up, because I know this is what I wanna do. There's nothing out there that I want to do more than be in fashion.

Alright time to go to my next class soon and get out of this darn library. I'll be back though, probably later this week or something.. because I have ANOTHER paper due soon in one class that I HATE.. which is Econ. It's on the LRA, but it still sucks. Especially since it has to be 10 pages long.. BOOOO.

K bye.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

getting into the swing of things.

Hello. I meant to update after my first modeling class but got too busy. School has been kicking my booty and I know it's not going to end. The class went really well I thought. It was a little awkward at first because I had to walk in front of everyone, but it'll get easier as we go along. This is mean, but it actually makes me feel better to walk in front of everyone if I see someone else not doing so well. It's sad, but that boosts my confidence. So mean.

I learned how to stand up straight like a model; standing up straight while rolling my hips in and my shoulders back and down. It's gonna take a little time to get used to, but i'll get it. It's already feeling pretty good because I've been trying to practice while just walking around or standing. I'm so excited to keep going.

So I'm starting to think that I might want to do my internship at GUESS, but that's not a for sure decision because I have about a year and a half to think about it. But, it's paid, and it's in LA which would be fabulous. It doesn't help with living expenses but if it's paid then that'll be alright. We'll see what happens.

I really don't know what else really to put, because my mind is kinda blah right now. Homework and school has been consuming all of my energy and my brain is fried. Luckily i've got a 3 day weekend. That'll be fabulous. Especially since Halloween is Saturday and I get to wear my costuuuume! I better look good. The wig isn't too great but you can't really be Silk Spectre without it unless you already have long brunette hair, which I don't.

Hope everyone has a Happy Halloween!

Sunday, October 18, 2009

just about time..

Sooooo.. my modeling class starts Thursday night. I'm super excited. Not so excited for the fact that it's not a 50 minute class.. considering that The Office will be on at 8, but maybe since it'll be the first class it'll be shorter. But, overall i'm really excited to learn more about modeling. I thought I sort of knew how to walk before the audition about a month ago, but once I got up there to try out I was a liiiiittle awkward. Hopefully this will also give me more confidence.

Speaking of modeling, i've been thinking really hard about it and i'm not so sure I would want to model for my main career. I was thinking about that for a while, because it would be amazing, but everytime I read something about how skinny models are, and how they eat close to nothing that is good for you, it's making me a little nervous. I just have a feeling I would get somewhere, and be told I need to either keep my weight, or lose some. So basicaly, i'm sort of 50/50. I would want to, because my upper body is a normal shape for most models and I would feel like I fit in somewhere where most of the other girls around me have the same shape, BUT on the otherhand, I just have a bad feeling about it. If I did modeling, I would probably just want to model on the side or for a part time job. Who knows, maybe when I get a job in the fashion world i'll get connections.

My fittings with my designer are going really pretty well. I was sort of sad I only got called by one designer, but now that things are starting to speed up I am really glad I only have one. If I had more than one, I think I would be stretched waaay to thin. About a week ago, my designer had realized she had accidentally the wrong fabric.. oops!! I felt so bad. She had worked so hard and did such a good job on what she was working on that she had to re-do it. The new one looks great tho and everything with that is going really well. Super excited for her to be finished so we can see the finished product

On a random note.. I really don't think anyone really reads these. Which, I don't read my friends' either, but I really don't have many friends that have one. Plus everyone's really busy so i'm not too hurt. =P

Hope everyone has a good week and i'll be sure to try and write about my first modeling class. <3

Thursday, October 1, 2009


Hey guuuuys. I'm actually in class right now working on a poster for President Lynch's inauguration but i'm having some trouble with Photoshop. Imagine that! Photoshop pisses me off. ANYWAY, the teacher is out of the room now so I can't ask her what to do. I'll just wait for Tuesday or something. I have a pretty good idea of what I want to do with it but I don't know if i'll actually execute it the way I want it to look. Because I tend to see what I want in my head, but it rarely turns out the way I want it to. Oh well. Maybe it'll be different this time.

So, I met with my designer again yesterday. I'm really excited to start doing this. It's really awesome to just wear clothes and just stand there. I could do this for a job! Haha. I would love to model. The only thing is, I just don't want to be forced to lose weight, so i'd pretty much just have to look for a modeling agency that doesn't care. Which might be hard to find, but I really don't wanna lose any weight. I want to gain weight. At least in certain spots.

That just brought me to my next dilemma. This may seem kinda cliche', but i'm having trouble deciding what I want to do in the fashion industry. Seems like everyone I know is second guessing themselves when it comes to what they want to do for the rest of their life. I'd love to work for a company, or retailer, but I just don't know exactly with what. I'd love to model also, though. Not really sure what God wants me to do here. Guess i'll just keep on keepin' on and see where that leads me.

I'm really looking forward to Halloween. I have an AWESOME costume in mind and i'm excited to actually look sexy for Halloween for a change. Hopefully at least. It's a Silk Spectre costume (if you don't know who that is, watch Watchmen) I know I don't look like her, and most definitely DON'T have the boobs for it, but I think it'll still look awesome. Just gotta find a wig that I can alter or something so I don't have to pay 20 dollars extra for the wig, because the costume is already pretty pricey. We're hoping to have a Halloween dance party for Invisible Children, so i'll for sure wear it there. Just hopefully I won't be the only one with a costume like that..

Anyway, I think i've figured out what I didn't know how to do on Photoshop. W00t! So i'm gonna go ahead and work on that because it's almost time to leave. I have so much crap to do. And it's all little stuff. I'll get it done though.


Saturday, September 26, 2009

and so it begins.

Uhmmm.. so things are starting to get crazy. I really hope I have time to update as much as I want..

With homework, projects, Invisible Children, worship team, youth group, work(well, more like never knowing when i'm gonna be called into work), and modeling comes stress I suppose. My family came into town this weekend, so things kinda had to freeze. I was gonna go on a float trip, but didn't get to go on that. Bummer. Oh well it's good seeing my family.

I had my first fitting with my designer on Thursday! Her name is Ashton and she's super sweet. When she called to ask if i'd model for her, she was like "now i'm designing cycling clothes, are you alright with spandex?" and i'm like.. "uhhh of course! I am a cyclist!" =) I thought that was an awesome coincedence. At least i'll get to model the clothes I love and am comfortable in. I was kinda hoping a designer would call me and ask if I wanted to model more fashionable, glamour clothing, but no one has yet so I don't think it's gonna happen. Which is perfectly fine, because I don't think I have time left in my schedule for much else..

Continuing with that.. my job situation. I told her i'm available for fittings on Mon/Wed/Fri from 1-3 but the problem is that I could be called into work at those times. Ashton said that we would really only be busy for the first 3 weeks or so, so i'm really hoping I don't get called into work much. I work Monday but we don't start more fittings til Wednesday so that's good. My next job(for sure)is on October 16th so i'm hoping she doesn't call me much in between then.

Fashion class is running my life.. I have so many projects in there PLUS a test on Monday which i've had no time to study for. That is NOT good. I can't keep going like this all semester. I'm really hoping things kinda start to slow down. I know i've said that before and they might not but i'm just hoping. That's all.

I'm super excited to get started wearing the cycling clothes Ashton is modeling on me. It's gonna be so much fun. Alright well it's early and about time I get ready for the day. My dad and I are gonna go on a bike ride this morning so that's good.. haven't really been able to ride it since i've been here because i've been so busy and didn't really have anyone to road ride with but i've found girls to start riding with so that's cool.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend.

Friday, September 18, 2009

project: runway.

Hey guys. Sorry this post might not be too long.. I have to be at class at 9 and I still have to pack my crap up. Things have been crazy lately. So many projects due, a quiz today that's technically more like a test, and today i'm going going going til about 5 tonight. So, pretty busy. I'm hoping next week won't be as bad.. minus me turning 21 =) won't have much time to do anything though, which is a bummer =(

Anyway, I tried out for modeling group on Tuesday. It was sooo nerveracking.. I had a pretty good confidence going on the way in but when I saw what we had to do I was a little taken aback haha.. I just thought we had to walk down a runway and back and take our jacket off on the way back, but it was a looot more than that. We waited for about a half hour for everyone to get there, then about 190 of us lined up in the hallway. Some of the girls were trying waaaay too hard. One girl had on such big pumps I thought she would have fallen, but apparently she's a dancer (stripper) sooooo she did fine.

I was number 50 and when my turn came I was super nervous. I kept telling myself to keep looking up and to not walk too fast, because walking slow is how they see you best. So when I got up there, I posed and smiled (which I was nervous about, because I didn't wanna look cheesy).. and walked down the runway. I had to stop at the end to pose, so I did a little turn, walked to my left, posed, walked to my right, posed, then walked back and took my jacket off at the same time. I didn't do too bad I don't think. Of course i'll never really know because i'll never see it haha but my friend Kasha went with me and told me I did well so hopefully I didn't look like too much of a nerd.

I must have done alright though, because I made it. The thing is though, pretty much everyone made it. But a LOT of the girls have the right body size, so i'm sure it was hard to pick just a few. I'm really excited to start. Never thought i'd have the chance to do this is real life.. maybe i'll get discovered! lol.

Alright well I really need to go right now.. I have a "quiz".. in a few hours and I really need to look over it more. It's in my Survey of Fashion class, and we have to know designers and different fashions of different generations. It's crazy. Kiiiinda nervous. Talk later..

Thursday, September 10, 2009

In the beginning..

Well, I'm really not completely sure what I want to write in this first entry, because I tend to be very bad at things that I just start. I'm sure I'm not the only one, but I just wanted to warn you just in case. Also, even though this is a blog about my education in fashion, I'm just a beginner. I'm not completely freakin' up to date on happenings in the fashion world, but I'm really hoping to get there as I progress in my education.

Right now, things are just starting to slow down, but also speeding up at the same time. I have like, 3 projects due within 2 weeks and I'm starting to feel overwhelmed. I know that some people have it worse, but everyone has their own levels of frustration that they can deal with. I'm actually only in one actual fashion course this semester, but the other ones I'm taking are required for the major I'm in, which is called Fashion Communications. It's basically a Communications major but with Fashion as a focus. Right now i'm thinking Fashion Photography might be cool, but we'll see.

My fashion course is pretty much just a base course for every kind of fashion major. It teaches about the fashion industry, and eventually we'll be learning more about companies and designers. That's the part I'm REALLY looking forward to. That way I'll feel like I know a little more than I do now, haha.

Now that I think of it though, I do have another fashion course. It just doesn't start til October. It's a modeling class. Yes, modeling. I am interested. I'm trying out for the modeling group in about a week, which is basically a group of girls that gets chosen to model for the fashion shows here at school, for the designing majors to use for the clothes they design. Cool, huh? Anyway I'm really excited. Not sure if I'll make it, but it's definitely worth a shot. Who knows, maybe I'll decide to do that instead? That would be a blast. Getting to wear a bunch of pretty stuff. Buuuut we all know how it is out there.. you gotta look perfect. And I'll tell you what, I am NOT perfect by any means. It does make me feel good that most models are flat chested... yay for people to fit in with!!! =)

So yeah. That's basically all for now. I'll update more as the semester goes on, and hopefully there will be more in depth entries. Especially about the modeling group.

Now I just gotta wait for American Eagle to get back to me for my retailer project in my fashion class..