getting into the swing of things.

Hello. I meant to update after my first modeling class but got too busy. School has been kicking my booty and I know it's not going to end. The class went really well I thought. It was a little awkward at first because I had to walk in front of everyone, but it'll get easier as we go along. This is mean, but it actually makes me feel better to walk in front of everyone if I see someone else not doing so well. It's sad, but that boosts my confidence. So mean.



I learned how to stand up straight like a model; standing up straight while rolling my hips in and my shoulders back and down. It's gonna take a little time to get used to, but i'll get it. It's already feeling pretty good because I've been trying to practice while just walking around or standing. I'm so excited to keep going.



So I'm starting to think that I might want to do my internship at GUESS, but that's not a for sure decision because I have about a year and a half to think about it. But, it's paid, and it's in LA which would be fabulous. It doesn't help with living expenses but if it's paid then that'll be alright. We'll see what happens.



I really don't know what else really to put, because my mind is kinda blah right now. Homework and school has been consuming all of my energy and my brain is fried. Luckily i've got a 3 day weekend. That'll be fabulous. Especially since Halloween is Saturday and I get to wear my costuuuume! I better look good. The wig isn't too great but you can't really be Silk Spectre without it unless you already have long brunette hair, which I don't.



Hope everyone has a Happy Halloween!

just about time..

Sooooo.. my modeling class starts Thursday night. I'm super excited. Not so excited for the fact that it's not a 50 minute class.. considering that The Office will be on at 8, but maybe since it'll be the first class it'll be shorter. But, overall i'm really excited to learn more about modeling. I thought I sort of knew how to walk before the audition about a month ago, but once I got up there to try out I was a liiiiittle awkward. Hopefully this will also give me more confidence.



Speaking of modeling, i've been thinking really hard about it and i'm not so sure I would want to model for my main career. I was thinking about that for a while, because it would be amazing, but everytime I read something about how skinny models are, and how they eat close to nothing that is good for you, it's making me a little nervous. I just have a feeling I would get somewhere, and be told I need to either keep my weight, or lose some. So basicaly, i'm sort of 50/50. I would want to, because my upper body is a normal shape for most models and I would feel like I fit in somewhere where most of the other girls around me have the same shape, BUT on the otherhand, I just have a bad feeling about it. If I did modeling, I would probably just want to model on the side or for a part time job. Who knows, maybe when I get a job in the fashion world i'll get connections.



My fittings with my designer are going really pretty well. I was sort of sad I only got called by one designer, but now that things are starting to speed up I am really glad I only have one. If I had more than one, I think I would be stretched waaay to thin. About a week ago, my designer had realized she had accidentally the wrong fabric.. oops!! I felt so bad. She had worked so hard and did such a good job on what she was working on that she had to re-do it. The new one looks great tho and everything with that is going really well. Super excited for her to be finished so we can see the finished product



On a random note.. I really don't think anyone really reads these. Which, I don't read my friends' either, but I really don't have many friends that have one. Plus everyone's really busy so i'm not too hurt. =P



Hope everyone has a good week and i'll be sure to try and write about my first modeling class. <3

ranting.

Hey guuuuys. I'm actually in class right now working on a poster for President Lynch's inauguration but i'm having some trouble with Photoshop. Imagine that! Photoshop pisses me off. ANYWAY, the teacher is out of the room now so I can't ask her what to do. I'll just wait for Tuesday or something. I have a pretty good idea of what I want to do with it but I don't know if i'll actually execute it the way I want it to look. Because I tend to see what I want in my head, but it rarely turns out the way I want it to. Oh well. Maybe it'll be different this time.

So, I met with my designer again yesterday. I'm really excited to start doing this. It's really awesome to just wear clothes and just stand there. I could do this for a job! Haha. I would love to model. The only thing is, I just don't want to be forced to lose weight, so i'd pretty much just have to look for a modeling agency that doesn't care. Which might be hard to find, but I really don't wanna lose any weight. I want to gain weight. At least in certain spots.

That just brought me to my next dilemma. This may seem kinda cliche', but i'm having trouble deciding what I want to do in the fashion industry. Seems like everyone I know is second guessing themselves when it comes to what they want to do for the rest of their life. I'd love to work for a company, or retailer, but I just don't know exactly with what. I'd love to model also, though. Not really sure what God wants me to do here. Guess i'll just keep on keepin' on and see where that leads me.

I'm really looking forward to Halloween. I have an AWESOME costume in mind and i'm excited to actually look sexy for Halloween for a change. Hopefully at least. It's a Silk Spectre costume (if you don't know who that is, watch Watchmen) I know I don't look like her, and most definitely DON'T have the boobs for it, but I think it'll still look awesome. Just gotta find a wig that I can alter or something so I don't have to pay 20 dollars extra for the wig, because the costume is already pretty pricey. We're hoping to have a Halloween dance party for Invisible Children, so i'll for sure wear it there. Just hopefully I won't be the only one with a costume like that..

Anyway, I think i've figured out what I didn't know how to do on Photoshop. W00t! So i'm gonna go ahead and work on that because it's almost time to leave. I have so much crap to do. And it's all little stuff. I'll get it done though.

Alright...bye!